Father's Day

Written: June 21, 2009 {Myspace}

Father's Day
Since my dad believed in a higher power (God) and believed in heaven and hell. Then he'll know I'm writing this I guess..

Happy Father's Day.
I love you, and I miss you more than you could stand to believe. This is the second year your not here for it but I'll light an incense for you, I promise. I know I don't believe in your God, but you did so that's enough for me to believe your seeing this. Things are going good with me so far but it's difficult without you here. I even sometimes forget your gone and that any day Nick and I will be going to Georgia to visit you for a while. But then i fall back into reality and yea sometimes it causes tears but for the most part I just think about our memories. I think some of us pushed the thought of Father's Day out of our heads because no one has mentioned it, or you. But I've been thinking about you all day. I miss you. Even though we were never on good terms, I'd rather be arguing with you now. More than ever I miss your dorky snake skin shoes and your hot pink shorts that you would put on to make me laugh. Even though I acted completely embarrassed, I laughed until I cried. Now Nick does it every now and then and he looks just like you. He's your mirror image. &I know I'm so much like Mom in millions of ways and I know you'd want me to be strong right now but sometimes you just have to let it all go and cry. I haven't cried in a while over you but today kinda ended that streak. I think the worst thing about it all is that I can't brag to you about how this summer is going so suprisingly well for me. I usually would want to tell my best friend but I just want to pick up the phone and call your number even though it's probably someone else's by now. I just really miss you. Everything about you. There's so much more I want to say, but since someone's going to be reading this, I want to keep it between you and me.

I love you so much Dad.
Happy Father's Day.

--Daddy's Little Girl