Venting

I continue to shock myself with how fast i can move past things. Confidence does a lot. To know what your worth and what you deserve has been the most helpful thing in my life. I've gotten over my past loves which not many people can say and one is like a sister to me as the other is no longer in my life for afterward friend purposes. &The girls that come in and out of my life really have left no scar on me. I think they'll be great, then realize their sluts, drunks, potheads, or doing absolutely nothing with their life's and it's easy to just know that it's not worth the disappointment and move past it. &All the friends that have backstabbed me and called me a cunt, I waste no time on it. Just move on. I don't continue to bring it up {except now} and I don't stress over it. If they can take the time to talk shit, don't take the time to even think about them twice. Their not worth it so move on. A lot of people give this as advice but I'm living it. I'm not the person that says "were done" but ends up back in your life. When I say, "were done" or "im done" i mean it. Don't expect to see or hear from me again because it won't happen. &In the rare cases that I do end up back in your life, it's because you've proven to me that you really do care and you truly are sorry. &If i believe it won't happen again. But I no longer trust too easily or too less. I'm exactly where i want to be. My scars are healing from the accident and soon i will no longer look in the mirror and see my worst nightmare flash before my eyes. Yes, I'm going to have this nasty scar above my eye but it's nothing some flipped hair can't cover. At least until I'm past the accident. I've never been so strong before in my life and I'd like to thank everyone who has ever been a part of my life because your all the reason I'm here today. I truly love my life and everything about it. It's shocking the things people do to you that seem so horrible it's inhuman but it's also shocking that someone can be so strong. I've managed to shock myself. A girl that used to wear a black hoodie everyday, keep her hair in her face, cut in secret, wish for death to approach soon, and do nothing but sit in her room and cry her days away is now this strong independent and fucking gorgeous young women that is headed to be a mathematician graduated from ball state and a life full of amazing friends and no regrets. Dad would be proud. Because I know I am =)