Poem: Out of Control

Written August 20, 2009 {Myspace}

Out of Control



Standing back.
Watching it pass.
It's under your control.
I've lost my hold.
On life.
Going down hill.
Completely still.
Surrendering my heart.
It's falling apart.
Greed taking over.
Wish I seen him sober.
Razors covered in red.
Music blarring,
but nothing's in my head.
Sadness running down my face.
So much hate.
Hatred duplicates.
Everyday,
more and more.
Dirty looks.
Nasty words.
Is this a curse?
Finding love.
Thinking, this is enough,
for me,
in life.
Then waking to my own,
personal,
hell.
Whispering in the bedroom.
Thought I couldn't hear you?
I see through you.
All of you.
Acting like you care.
Life's so unfair.
Responsibilities over-rated.
It doesn't pay up.
Those guys with cups,
Waiting for a penny.
You've got many.
But one's too much,
to give up.
Green, green, green!
All it does,
it makes you mean.
Makes you blind to see,
what you've done,
what you've become...
To the ones that you loved.
Blinded by temporary smiles.
But we see the miles,
your headed toward.
Still want to move forward?
Believe me,
it's not pretty.
It's no mystery.
That you'll end,
at home,
alone.